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Emergency Lost Time Update

I know it isn't Thursday yet, but something terrible has happened. [Is this a spoiler? I had no idea it was coming.]

Albertine is dead. She left Little M. early in the morning one day, and since then he has been trying a number of sad, hilarious schemes to manipulate her into coming back - trying to make her jealous or excite her pity or avarice. She died very suddenly in an accident that was no one's fault. The telegram arrived just as Little M. was fantasizing about an accident or illness that would allow him to rush to her side, which allowed me to hope for a moment that her death was itself a fantasy that would soon be dispelled. I am still hoping, several pages later, that the telegraph was a lie, cooked up between Albertine and her aunt to scare Little M. and force his hand in the marriage issue, or to make him more pliable for a little while.

Maybe it still will be? I don't want Albertine to live with Little M.; they are destined to be unhappy together. But I also want her to be alive, flirting with waitresses, animated by unknowable thoughts.

[A] suffering until then unimagined, that of learning that she would not come back. And yet, had I not told myself many times, that quite possibly, she would not come back? I had indeed told myself so, but now I saw that never for a moment had I believed it.



I am impressed by Proust's ability to describe this feeling while simultaneously producing it in me, the reader. But I am also upset.

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lost_spook
Dec. 31st, 2016 08:28 pm (UTC)
Aww. I haven't been keeping up with your Proust posts, but... *pets*
evelyn_b
Jan. 1st, 2017 08:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks, lost_spook! <3

I hope your year's off to a good start.
a_phoenixdragon
Dec. 31st, 2016 11:03 pm (UTC)
OMG dude...what??

*HUGS*
evelyn_b
Jan. 1st, 2017 08:52 pm (UTC)
It is even more OMG-dude-what than you know. I'll attempt to explain on Thursday. OH PROUST :|
wordsofastory
Jan. 8th, 2017 07:34 pm (UTC)
Oh, how sad. And though I haven't read the book and have only been following along with your posts – how unexpected! It didn't seem like that sort of plot at all.
evelyn_b
Jan. 9th, 2017 12:16 am (UTC)
In Search of Lost Time is a lot of things at once. . . but it was totally unexpected for me, too!
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